I’m sitting here sipping my tea, a little melancholy today.
The blog site I frequent, and have been on for many years lost a blogger today. Someone I’ve come to regard as a living angel, and a dear friend. He died last night, complications from surgery/cancer. I’ve never met the man in person, but know people who have.
Then there is what’s going on in my “real” life… Mum is in surgery right now, nothing major… just kidney stones that lodged somewhere they couldn’t blast with an ultrasound. Still, they’re cutting her up and poking around some major organs/arteries. I’m a bit lot worried.
And I can’t stop wondering, as absolutely ridiculous as it is, if my friend down in Oregon passed so that she could live. And then I think to myself what an awful person I am for even contemplating that… how do I come up with these things? and why can’t I just put the idea aside. I’ve tried distracting myself with all sorts of things but nothing has worked yet. Except for maybe writing this “review”.
Sorry for the emodump. I couldn’t really post this in my regular blog place.
Anyhow. This tea was a much needed cup of selfcare. Emotional drinking? you bet.
With just 1/3 tsp of sugar, the pancake and syrup notes pop a bit. Of course I added a dollop of milk as well. It really adds that extra oomph needed for pancake texture.
Well, that’s all I got. RIP my dear sweet PM. Meanwhile my fingernails are shredded waiting for word on Mum.
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How devastating. And completely understandable that a loss of any kind would make you wonder all sorts of things (why we lose people, how it’s determined who will go when, if there’s a point, what it is, if there’s an order/purpose, etc.). I’d give you the longest hug right now if I could.
Awwww thanks Keychange, I would take that hug in a second. You are the sweetest <3
So sorry to hear about your loss.
Not awful. Not at all. It’s human, it’s normal, and there’s a flow to life – even if we don’t understand it. For me, it’s been about accepting that sometimes, “bad” things happen for good reasons, i.e. I’ve had amazing breakthroughs and growth from those darker places, and couldn’t have gotten there without the “bad”. Sending much love and light to you all, and hopes for a speedy and easy recovery.
So sorry about your loss. Just remember that just because you’ve never met someone in person does not mean you don’t know them, and does make your grieving process (whatever it may be) any less valid than someone who had.
I’m so sorry, Indigo. :(
My condolences to you.
All sorts of things go through our head when making sense of death, life, fear.
(( Indigobloom ))
Oh wow I didn’t realize there was so many comments. My inbox got swarmed when I subscribed to the black Friday thread here in the discussions. Thanks everyone, you all make me feel a bit more sane and hugged xox
How devastating. And completely understandable that a loss of any kind would make you wonder all sorts of things (why we lose people, how it’s determined who will go when, if there’s a point, what it is, if there’s an order/purpose, etc.). I’d give you the longest hug right now if I could.
Awwww thanks Keychange, I would take that hug in a second. You are the sweetest <3
So sorry to hear about your loss.
Not awful. Not at all. It’s human, it’s normal, and there’s a flow to life – even if we don’t understand it. For me, it’s been about accepting that sometimes, “bad” things happen for good reasons, i.e. I’ve had amazing breakthroughs and growth from those darker places, and couldn’t have gotten there without the “bad”. Sending much love and light to you all, and hopes for a speedy and easy recovery.
So sorry about your loss. Just remember that just because you’ve never met someone in person does not mean you don’t know them, and does make your grieving process (whatever it may be) any less valid than someone who had.
I’m so sorry, Indigo. :(
My condolences to you.
All sorts of things go through our head when making sense of death, life, fear.
(( Indigobloom ))
Oh wow I didn’t realize there was so many comments. My inbox got swarmed when I subscribed to the black Friday thread here in the discussions. Thanks everyone, you all make me feel a bit more sane and hugged xox